Cosmic, this is completely unacceptable!!
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Ok, seriously.. a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do. So if you cannot find the motivation anymore to play, or at least lost the joy or satisfaction it gave you, then you're totally in the right to prioritize other things over GvM.
To give you a bit of hope: i quit a few months after the last wipe, after having played for many years. It was a combination of "having to start over" and the fact that right at that time I entered the "working class" (i.e. finished my study). For some reason, I really don't understand why, I found my way back just months ago, fully expecting to not find a server at all, let alone one that was still visited by others. Now I have 5 or so toons and 5 or so friends that started again, and I'm greatly enjoying myself.
Maybe the above will encourage you to give it another go in a few years.. who knows what could happen!
Until then, we'll try to keep the server as ruthless and inhospitable and dangerous as we can
In a final attempt I can only say that if you are in need of some pvp action, I'm happy to log either a Gondor or Mordor.
All the best!
bk